Did I give up too soon?
Noo, that isn’t a long, forgotten quote from General George Custer.
It is what’s been bouncing around in my big, empty head these days.
Did I give up too soon on balancing multiple sclerosis with gainful employment?
(Do you hear the violins playing?)
Applying for disability in March, I was approved the first time, and officially became a “government gimp” in August.
It’s been nearly three years now. I feel better as a whole, but walk worse.
Granted, I don’t miss the nine hour workday, combined with my 2 1/2 hour total commute each day.
But sometimes I think I raised the white flag too soon.
It’s inspiring to me to hear from MSer’s who still fight the fight in the workplace.
They struggle with the same mobility, balance, fatigue and cognitive issues as the rest of us.
Yet, there they are…”punching-in” each morning with work to do.
I question myself if I gave up too quickly.
Do you think that about your own situation?
Do you still have fire in your belly, just no mojo in your legs?
Don’t get me wrong, I was thrilled to be excused from my job back in ’09. It was unsatisfactory at that point and the hours were grinding my spirit to powder.
But yet, today, there is a lingering rumble inside.
Is it the calling of self-worth? Or just the after-effects of a taco salad?
I would love to hear your side of the story.
Did MS force you to hang up your lunch pail?
And do you regret that issue?
If you continue to work, how do you handle the extra pressures MS places on you?
And what drives you onward, despite knowing the disability option is there for the taking?
I am one with multiple sclerosis—but I won’t let it define who I am.
Maybe that’s why I write these words ( and you read’em)…while kicking around the thoughts of giving in too soon.